I am Eagle Spirit Boy. I was named by my older brother. Today it is the 20th of November 2019. I am recovering from Kidney Cancer surgery and I am limited in what I can do physically. It has been over two and half years of being ill. I am struggling to keep living well as my partner has abandoned me again.
For me, it had been extremely stressful dealing with another person’s abusiveness as I am very vulnerable with these massive changes in my body, mind and spirit… pain, nausea and mental anguish are all involved in this illness. And it is almost a blessing to have my partner gone. I have to face the inevitable of facing loneliness and depression at the same time. But since the tumor has been removed from my right kidney, I seem to have less anxiety now.
I pray for peace and tranquility to be throughout all my daily activities and through my healing…
My surgery was October 28th and then I had internal bleeding in my right kidney and had to have to coils put in – angiogram on Saturday November 09, 2019. This was a set-back and is letting me know just how serious this operation is. I am in pain for sure and am managing.
Being alone is difficult. Being with someone who is disrespectful and abusive is worse. I pray for peace and gentleness to permeate all my life now.